OK….this entry and the date of it match correctly. Or, let’s say I am writing this entry for Oct. 29 on Wednesday, Oct. 29.
I wrote another entry on this day for yesterday, Oct. 28.
I am going to drop another .5 tablespoon tonight, and up Valium to 7 milligrams. I will hold at that till C. gets back from convention.
Don’t know that I am doing this taper thing correctly, but I am at least going quite slowly. 62 days or so now since I started.
As with yesterday, slept so so; woke tired but without the high level of anxiety fatigue. Fatigue yes, but not as coated with anxiety.
Instant messaged with Dan. He is returning to SB tomorrow. He reports that Steve slept most of today. I think he got what he wanted out of the trip: a clear and realistic grasp of S’s situation. It’s bad and it’s fatal.
Spoke with a guy at club whom I had not seen in a while. He is in late 70’s, early 80’s, a former pretty high employee of Sears. Kids all grown. I asked how he was and he said he had been out (not working out) for seven weeks. He has shingles. Later in the locker room, he showed me. Really nasty stuff. Ugly, raw, red. And Painful. They were going to put him on Vicodin, but refused that, and took another pain killer, that, he said, works some times and some times not. He has lost weight and looked pretty tired.
Got it: he took Gabapentin, originally used as an anti-convulsent.
Did 20 on recumbent, 30 on elliptical, and .5 mile swim.