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Exhausted again.

This just ain’t right, and I am now more convinced that the EMDR has something to do with this crushing sense of fatigue.  Will talk this over with therapist.
While exhausted, I did sleep clear till seven and I cannot recollect much dreaming.
Wanted to look up this stuff about clonazepam and GABA cells; found some stuff but couldn’t understand it.  Did understand stuff about why elderly (me) should not take it; one reason possibility of drug accumulation.  Scared again.
This is very tiring, exhausting, and scary.
I try at moments to sit with the fear, as therapist suggests. not fight it, let it be, and ask myself if I am OK.  I do it but it doesn’t seem to do anything.
Did 20 minutes on recumbent; 30 on elliptical, and swam .5 miles…..
Spoke with Marine Biologist who thinks a crisis that will come with climate change and possibly upset political order: shortage of water.

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